"That's not what I mean, it's not about being afraid of YOU really." She rubbed at her forehead, trying to fuss out the way to word this.
"Haven't you ever just felt surprised at yourself? Like something happened that made you feel angry or scared and you were shocked at just HOW upset you were?"
"It's like that, but I'm happy; I'm surprised at how happy I am and I'm afraid of doing something to ruin it. I have this irrational anxious fear that I'm going to say something or do something to change how you feel about me.
Not that I'm going to change, but that you're going to get to know me better and decide I'm really not the kind of person you want to be with once you know more about me."
She sighed a little, reaching across the table to grasp his hand in hers.
"There's not a lot of people in my life who like me for who I 'actually am'."
Her small hand squeezed more firmly around his fingers.
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Date: 2012-07-22 03:28 am (UTC)"Haven't you ever just felt surprised at yourself? Like something happened that made you feel angry or scared and you were shocked at just HOW upset you were?"
"It's like that, but I'm happy; I'm surprised at how happy I am and I'm afraid of doing something to ruin it. I have this irrational anxious fear that I'm going to say something or do something to change how you feel about me.
Not that I'm going to change, but that you're going to get to know me better and decide I'm really not the kind of person you want to be with once you know more about me."
She sighed a little, reaching across the table to grasp his hand in hers.
"There's not a lot of people in my life who like me for who I 'actually am'."
Her small hand squeezed more firmly around his fingers.